Saturday, August 22, 2009

okay i had to put some more up!

So yes i think they are cute! I hope you do too! what can i say Adrienne is just amazing and made us look so darn cute

35 weeks

So my amazing neighbor Adrienne took some maternity pictures of us! And wow she did a great job! SO here is two :) there is more on face book and when i get them all i will post more...but i wanted to share with you how darn cute they are!! Thanks again Adrienne! We really are going to miss having you as our neighbor!

34 weeks

some cute ones of Jackie

asleep yet again on the chair

Ridding her bike up the canyon

Again what a good pic of my baby!

I think she is just so darn cute! I love this pic!

ahhh i think she is so darn cute i hope Abby is just as cute!

Friday, August 21, 2009

WOW! Its almost here!

In just 4 short days we will be on the road to our new home, in a new city, in a new state, far away from all our friends and family. Its starting to really set it. Our apartment is slowly getting packed away, and our living room is filling up with boxs. I can no longer think, "oh thats far away its not going to happen" because its going to happen in just 4 days! Speaking of which i still have A TON TO DO! AHH most things that can be packed are, i am just waiting until the end to pack up the rest. Still though some laundrey needs to be done, our storage garage needs to be cleaned out. We still have some to do, oh and i guess a Uhaul packed and a apartment cleaned also needs to take place. Sometimes i wish that Abby was not do for a few months instead of in just one short month. But I just want to see her and hold her, that i am willing to deal with the craziness that this has put me into. I have been working non stop working a full day at work coming home and working until bed. Then i got sick really sick. I got a VERY bad stomach flu. I could not do anything, but rest. I know it was good for me. I needed to take the time to just lay in bed and sleep but still if you know me, you will know how hard that was for me. (dont worry i still packed 2 boxs later that night ;)
I am at work for my last day, its weird for me. I love working I will miss it but i am more exccited to stay home with my girls and take care of them! Lets just hope we can get this move done, I can make the 13 hour drive with out going into labor (since well there really is no where to have the baby but my car on the drive)!
We are really excited though, it will be a fun adventrure for us! We will miss our family and friends like crazy but are excited to take the journey! So come see us, we would love to see you before we go and well Monday if you are free come over and help us pack up our UHAUL and clean our place. My doc told me to just supervise sooo we will need all the help we can get!

Thursday, August 13, 2009


Its crazy how fast things can change in life. I still am in shock that we are moving and changing our lives so much! I am sure that it wont really set in until we pack up our u haul and get out there, but still right now I am seeing how crazy things are becoming, and how crazy i am feeling about everything. With a baby due in less then 7 weeks my mind is racing! Its a crazy time to try and switch doctors, hospitals, insurance, leave your family who you look to for support. And not to mention try to pack up and move and set up a new place to live.

I worry about a lot, moving is expensive! Derek's job is helping out with some but there are lots of deposits to pay and lots of gas to be used to get there. I worry and i should not worry so much, but yet i do and I always will.

I am getting things done slowly, i am getting utilities turned off and new ones turned on I am going through all of our stuff and trying to get rid of things we do not really need. I am slowly packing up boxes and slowly getting things taken off our walls. I am trying but to be honest, i want to just rest. I want to be able to come home from work and not have to worry about everything, i want to close my eyes and have it all done. I want to know that everything is going to be okay, i want to know that I will be okay without the closeness of my family when Abby is born, i want to know i will be able to unpack my apartment before she is born so i am not living in a unpacked place because that will drive me nuts!

I am glad we have the apartment. That has helped me knock things off my to do list. Its getting shorter, slowly its getting there. Most things left on there are big things that wont be done until the end, but still they are there. I hate to complain its really not me, but yet I need to today. I need a chance to express that right now I just want to scream! I don't want to devote all the energy that is required to accomplish everything, i am 34 weeks pregnant for gosh sakes i want to have some down time, but with working full time and moving i guess it will not be in my future for well a VERY VERY long time.

I really hate taking Jackie away from her grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins! I think that is what is hardest on me. We went to my dads last night and it broke my heart to think she wont be able to just come up here when ever we want. She really adores my dad and he adores her so much! I hate to think Abby will miss our on that special relationship because there will not be as much interaction. I know most people live far from their families, so for them its normal. I have been lucky, I have had them close and I love it! I am not excited to be apart from them, but yet i know we are supposed to go. I know that this is the right job for Derek, but still it does not make it any easier. Its the only way that I will be able to stay home with both of my girls, and i want that, i yearn for that. I hate that I have worked full time most all of Jackie's life. I hate how much I have missed out on, but yet i had to do it to get Derek through school. He is done now and can take that on. If we stay here it wont happen. He would have to find a full time job, and well I have a great one that pays well, I know I would end up back here. If we go there he has a full time job, and would only need a part time job to make things work, its a better option.

There is still much to do much that has to happen so much that we have to accomplish in order to make things work, so much to do, and yet all I want to do is sleep and rest and enjoy the last few weeks I have with Jackie as my only child. I know we were supposed to get pregnant when we did, I am just not a fan of the timing of everything else. I know the Lord has a plan for us though, that its what he wants us to go through and he will make sure we are taken care of and everything will work out just my question is why do I still worry, why do I still get so scared. Its time to tell Satan that he is not allowed to give me this fear, and let the Lord give me the peace and comfort I need.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Off we go!

Well we are going to Alamogordo, NM! We are going to leave on the 25th! So wish us luck in packing and getting ready....oh and if you like packing come over! :)

Monday, August 10, 2009


So we did it the trek out to Alamogordo, New Mexico to see if we want to move out there!
For those of you who dont know Derek was offered a job out there so we went to check it out over the weekend.

Jackie went to her Aunt Nikki's house (Derek's sister THANKS AGAIN!) and we rented a car since we did not feel like putting 26 hours on our car and plus it was cheaper to rent a little car then drive ours lol darn gas!

ANYWAY it was a VERY long drive 13 hours and when you are 33 weeks pregnant that is not fun! But we managed Derek was good to stop so i could use the bathroom when i needed to :)! We got in late that night and could not tell much.....the next day Derek got up and went with the managing editor of the paper to see the paper and talk about the job, and I went off to look at a few apartments in the area. After that i meet back up with them and he took us out to lunch and showed us the town.

Its hard for me to describe the town because the best way i know how is to say its like Lamar CO. That is where my dad is from. Its just a little town that is older, with not a lot of grass because lets face it its New Mexico! After lunch Derek and I looked at some more places and found 2 that we decided would work. One is 425 a month ( I KNOW CHEAP!) for 2 bed 1.5 baths. Its HUGE! Its town home style so you walk in the a huge living room and then there is a huge kitchen and a half bath. There is even a little back yard (when i say little i mean like 10 feet by 5 feet. ) so it would be so nice for Jackie to be able to go out there while i am doing things in the kitchen, and its all fenced back there! Upstairs has 2 huge bedrooms and a bath! We really liked it :) and that price i mean come on! The other place is a very very nice place one of those would be gated in most places type apartment complex's. It has a club house pool and everything....but its a lot smaller then the other one and 200 more a month.

We spent the rest of the day looking around town trying to decide what the heck we want to do! We got up Sunday went to church and then started our journey home! Derek made great time we made it home in 12.5 hours, with lots of stops! Dereks sis was nice enough to drive Jackie down to our place so we did not have to go pick her up in Farmington. We missed her so much we had to wake her up to give her hugs, but she went right back to sleep we just missed our monkey and wanted snuggles! She was pretty excited to see us though so i dont think she cared!

So right now we are deciding what we want to do....go down there or not. If we do go we would have to be there in 2 weeks! YIKES! sooo if i call you i am probley asking for some help with packing since i should be taking it somewhat easy ;) although i am just not that type of a girl....we have a lot to figure out though insuarance, housing, work, packing, moving, ect...I will keep you posted though! As for me what do i want to do....I do not really care too much. I would love to go down i think its great for Derek and his carrer as a journalist, i think it would be a fun adventure to move away and just have it be us. I also know that i will miss my fam terriably and that will be VERY hard on me and I just feel horrbile about taking Jackie away from her grandpa she loves him SO much i know she would miss seing him often and going to his house! Plus well if we go Derek has got to find a part time job up there, but everyone up there tells us that will not be a problem (i even asked one of the workers at a resturant we were eating lol) sooo who knows :) once again a long blog with nothing in it just me talking but hey talking here helps me think!!

hmmm moving at 36 weeks prego i am sure is a very SMART idea! lol but i really do not want to send Derek without us and have him miss the birth of the baby, what can i say i need him there for that!

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

32 weeks!

So i did not take my normal pic this week, but Derek had gotten one of me on Sunday at my nephews baby blessing! :) so here ya go 32 weeks! we are getting closer!