Tonight was one of those frustrating moments of motherhood that turned into a wonderful she got it full of pride mommy moments. I want to record it so I will never forget how tender and sweet it was to me.
The last week or so Jackie has had a lying problem. She has been telling little white lies about little things here and there. I have had a hard time getting her to confess to the lying and have been at a loss as to what to do. Tonight she told a a few to many to my liking so we had a stern talk. After a quick prayer in my heart to know how to help her understand, I explained to her how important is to be honest and how important it is that we follow Christ. I explained to her that she can ask in her prayers for help to not say lies. She was actually very receptive. She listened and looked into my eyes (well expect when she tried to lie again...). After our talk she told me she was so sorry. I asked her what her punishment should be, she told me that she should have no story and should go to bed. I told her i thought that was a good idea and asked if she would say a prayer.
I have never heard a prayer so sweet, sincerer, and innocent as Jackie's prayer tonight. She said, "Heavenly father thank you for this day, thank you for my mommy daddy and Abigail. I am so sorry I have been telling lies to my mommy and daddy, please help me to not tell lies to my mommy, daddy, and anyone else. Help me be a good daughter and friend. Please help me make good choices. amen" The Spirit that filled the room during her little prayer was so strong and I know she felt it as well. It just assured to me how much Heavenly Father loves his little children and how special they are to him.
I broke down and cried during her prayer and so did she, (yes we are too much alike). After her prayer she asked me why we can be forgiven. It gave us a chance to talk about her articles of faith she is learning and talk about the atonement. She is such a little sweetheart and really seemed to understand everything (as best as a little kid can anyway). As I was leaving her room, she told me how much she loved me and that she will not tell any lies tomorrow. I think the thing that amazed me the most was the pure innocence and sincerity she had.
I feel truly blessed to be Jacquelyn's mother. She is a special little girl who has things to do here in this world. I only hope and pray that I can teach her and help her through life. One thing i know for certain without prayer and the help of Heavenly Father and his spirit it would be impossible to help teach and guide our children. I know we were lucky to take a while to get to a big lesson teaching mess up moment for Jackie and I can only imagine there are hundreds more to come, I just pray that I will be in tune enough to ask the Lord for help as I teach her and Abigail.
Since I have gone all churchy here on you guys let me just take a moment to share with you all my testimony of this gospel. I am so thankful that I have the opportunity to know that this Church is true, to know the steps that I need to take to make it back to my Heavenly Father. I am grateful to know that I have my family forever, that I will never lose them. I am grateful for the scriptures and the knowledge and peace the bring. I am grateful for our opportunities to serve in church and know that the only reason we are making it through right now is because of the service. I am also so grateful for friends and family that I can talk to who understand and who love me for me, and help me along my way.